Last night, after hanging out with K, I got home and was so tired. I didn’t have any strength to watch television or anything else. I immediately put on my pajamas and feel asleep at 8:30 pm. My sleep was nice and peaceful until 4:00 am when I woke up with a very painful sore throat. My immediate thought was to run to my medicine cabinet for my trusty supply of dimetapp and a throat lozenge.
But when I got to the bathroom it hit me: “You can’t take any of this because you don’t know if you are pregnant!” And at that moment I kind of got angry. I just wanted to feel better but couldn’t do anything at the moment to do so. If I knew I was pregnant, or had any symptoms of pregnancy, I probably wouldn’t have been so upset because I know the denial of medicine is for a greater cause. But the not knowing made the way I was feeling even worse.
So I went back to bed and tried to go to sleep but I couldn’t. I tossed and turned with every swallow, sneeze and cough. And I’ve been up ever since, with the exception of a 10 minute nap on the couch. Aside from drinking some tea, or sipping on some lemon juice and honey, I don’t even know what I can do to make myself feel better right now. I feel like crap and this sucks!
My appetite is still lacking and everything I eat tastes like it has no flavor. Although I did just enjoy some celery sticks with salt and a cup of mango nectar. Anyone who knows me knows how much I love my food but for the last week I have only been eating just to eat so I’m not hungry. The only thing that’s bringing me some comfort right now is curling up on the couch, under a blanket, next to my dog.
I also had a crying spell today, which was so weird. I was watching the series finale of Dexter, which I had on DVR, and I started balling my eyes out as it neared the end. Why the heck was I crying over a show about a serial killer?!! These progesterone pills are messing with my hormones!
I guess the only “good” thing that came from this cold is that it prevented me from going to the store to buy a home pregnancy test. Yesterday I made up my mind that I was going to POAS. I just wanted to know one way or the other what the results are. Guess I’ll have to wait at least one more day…