I am 7 & 6 days post IUIs number 1 & 2, and this two week wait (tww) is killing me! It’s amazing how calm I was the first couple of days. I was even joking with my mom, who came with me for IUI #2, about how she’s probably the only grandparent that was in the room when their grandchild was created. In the midst of my cramps from the procedures, I was in an extremely positive mood. However, things started to change around day 4…
Every moment that I’m not busy doing something I’m either thinking about my chances or researching “early pregnancy symptoms”. Every little twinge or cramp I get, I am symptom spotting and wondering what’s going on inside my body. To tell you the truth, aside from the cramps that I had up until Tuesday, which was 5 & 4 days post IUIs, I haven’t had any symptoms. The cramps are gone. I had a slight spell of nausea while eating some oatmeal the other morning, but I think that was from a combination of the progesterone pills and just me worrying myself sick. I think I’m constantly trying to create some symptoms in my head. I tell myself it’s ok not to have any symptoms because it’s way too early to expect to see any, but it doesn’t help reading all of the stuff on the net about women who “just know” immediately after they conceive or start having symptoms right away.
My question is, how do you remain hopeful and positive while at the same time being realistic? I want to remain positive and think that I am PUPO, but I also don’t want to get my hopes up so much and be disappointed if the results aren’t what I want them to be. I know my chances for this attempt were very slim. And I decided to “go big or go home” and take the risk. But now the odds, or lack thereof, are constantly on my mind. This tww is torture!!!
And I usually use food as my comfort, but I have totally lost my appetite. Nothing tastes right to me. What’s this foodie to do? I can’t even have a drink to help calm my nerves. Again, this tww is torture.
I am trying my best not to pee on a stick. On one hand I say just wait until the blood test. On the other I say, well, if you get a negative before the blood test then you will be more prepared for the results from the blood test and it won’t be a surprise. I guess Sunday is the earliest I could pee on a stick. Will I be able to hold out???