I’m going to Puerto Rico tomorrow for some much-needed rest, relaxation, and rejuvenation. When I originally planned this trip with my friend T, it was supposed to be my “last hoorah” trip; eat, drink (and drink), and be merry before my first IUI in May. However, as I mentioned before, my first IUI (and fingers crossed my only) has to be postponed until I get my thyroid levels under control.
I am notoriously known for overpacking, so last night while packing my bags I made a conscious effort to try to pack light. I probably still put more outfits in my bag than I should have, but I did make a vast improvement. Honestly, all I really need is a bathing suit and some shorts, but this girl likes clothes and it’s hard to choose which outfits I want to bring…
While thinking about packing light (and thankfully it’s all summer clothes so I’m nowhere near my 50 lbs. weight limit) I thought about real life baggage and how that can emotionally weigh you down. We all have emotional baggage. The only difference between us all is how big the bag is — some people are able to just have a small tote bag, while others have trunks. Our past experiences can leave imprints on our life and shape the way we view things and handle situations. To have a fulfilling life, we must learn from past situations, without being limited by them. And I must admit, I’m not very good at this.
I tend to focus on “closed doors” and missed opportunities; trying to analyze the “what if’s” and “what did that mean?”. This oftentimes keeps me stuck in the past and unable to embrace the present. I find myself doing this a lot while dating. I’ll use my past to judge the new person I meet. Sometimes it’s justified, but I wonder how many times I use my past to shut down someone before I’ve given him a fair opportunity. Is it my baggage that’s holding me back from finding my Prince Charming or is it really just slim pickings out there? I know plenty of single women, and they don’t have the same baggage that I do, so I’m going to say it’s slim pickings — but I know me being judgmental (or as I like to call it, picky) doesn’t help things… 🙂
I know I have some work to do to get rid of some of my baggage. I don’t want to be so weighed down by my bags that it limits me. I also don’t want it to prevent me from being the best parent I can be. So as part of my rejuvenation on this trip, I’m going to read this book I just downloaded on my Kindle: “Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead” by Brene Brown. I’m going to use this time to try to get rid of my emotional clutter and open myself up to living life wholeheartedly. I’m going to learn how to pack light!
And I won’t forget about the rest and relaxation part of my trip. It will look like this:
What baggage is holding you back?